i need to self actualize again

depression + boredom + procrastination = total human life wreckage .

it makes my head spin worse . this depression and boredom i mean . i am really depressed as well so i am committing suicide procrastination . i feel sick . i feel like crying again . maybe i should do so . its not like someone else will comfort me now . i am all alone in my world now . my best friend will leave me . a heartache just met me . no one will love me :| i seriously need to self actualize again . i need someone to be with :(