denouement

its not my problem people are so annui now adays LOL . but most tirjir students are currently busy unlike me still blogging what im feeling :]] what can i do . i cant help but have fun with my new outlet LOL . just like what lolo said :]] anyways . im currently and officially a loser this year :]] im always with lolo ee :]] hahahahaha :]] but anyways . atleast we're not plastic with what we feel and express what we may when we want to . well anyways . i miss kath and i thought that feeling was kinda one sided until this afternoon .

its not really very short story . nor is it long . but this afternoon our last subject was math and i was totally drained . and i was like . after i go to my locker ill get my bag and go to einstein's room . i was haggard yet fast when i had to locker . couz nath was waiting for me and anyways . when i did . i just shoved all my stuff in my bag and grabbed it . when it touched my back i almost fell down =]] so stupid :]] is it my fault im so movable ? :]] anyways . when i got my balance back i went out our room and just stormed in the einstein room :]] hahaha im so arrogant that time . cosidering my sleepiness that would be considerable :]] =]] hahaha . i got the stuff on kath's arms and placed my bag and stuff on her arm chair . she got used to that . i am a masochist anyway and shes a saddist so we are really magnets from diffrent poles that fills in the needs of the opposite . haha so anyways . we waited for gen . and i also helped her with her things [im a real masochist] so anyways . we complimented on bentz being feeler again [i really dont care if he looks like that . hes already escort what more does he want ?] so now we went down at about 5 . [our dissmisal is 4:40] me and kath were really tierd . i guess she was exhausted . and she needed to go to kumon later that time [its todaii =]]] so anyways . we still waited for *kuya* even if it wasnt our wishes to do so . we waited . we always wait for him . its kinda annoying . well starting tommorow we wont wait for him anymore [me and kath at the very least] so . we walked . like always [but most probably we'll stop tommorow] and me and kath were alone couz bentz was kinda slow walker . here our conversation earlier :

she said "isa pang kabiguan"

i was like "tama"

"sana meron aco din aco *max*"

"kung pwede lang bigyan na kita ng *max* kath . kung pwede lang"

"sana nga marga sana nga"

"sabagaii . mahirap na maghanap ng *max*"

"un nga marga . wala na masyado *max* sa mundo"

so its nor really my wishes to see kath sad . but to be honest i really dont know what to do . i put myself on her shoes and i felt annoyed at *kuya's* prescence . and when we parted . it seemed nirvana to be away from him . i really need to be a psychologist :]] i feel emotions when i put myself on others shoes . and not just to analyze the problem but also the emotions of the certain person . well to be honest i cant understand why i was catching my breath along with kath . i realized i was doing that when i let go of my breathe . well . i cant really understand the status quo so i just let myself walk to 711 . and it was the event i missed about kath :] i really miss the times when we would go to mcdo when its periodical knowing we have lots of time before its 12 . but to be honest we really were just killing time . just like what we did earlier :] well . we saw jerome . earl . jacob & regil . well they werent really buying :]] hahaha . so when we went in the guys were like . si kath ! (hidden message maii manlilibre satin . bad guis . tsk99) well anyways . while walking we decided to eat at 711 couz if we eated at the places near the school we would most probably leave very late and would cause kath to be late in her kumon . so i wanted to eat siopao . but the food was cold . couz it was newly put so i just decided to eat hotdog along with them . well the guys were successful in achieveing with what they wanted to do . which is hotdog . well the chili con carne wanst chili so i got annoyed and kath told me to just nevermind the *unchiliness* haha . so as usual we have the same drink . we share drinks . we dont care really . couz last year people were weirded out by us . but to be honest we werent just metro . we were real . ysa told us we were sweet :] :]] haha so anyways . i got a realization that she also needed me just like i need her . we kinda got dependent on one another . i guess :]] and she really got my psychological mind to work with randomness :] so cool . i get to psychoanalyze with just a few moments and i get all these weird yet very useful ideas on my head . its kinda cool and very useful . well anyways i let myself join her with the jeepney . couz i was bored and i first thought of walking . or maybe the last thing i said to her was meant to be said that day . :] so anyways . lets leave this blog as it is :] wow :] its kath edaii all over again . :]] well not really . she just happen to shared again like her edaii so :]